My dad

He’s my dad: Should it matter?

Having a familial relationship with someone doesn’t automatically mean that you HAVE to tough it up and meet with them, or be around them, or take their advice to heart.

It will be better for you: Yes it might be, but at the moment I don’t feel safe and I don’t feel comfortable with you and the things you say and I have a right to leave you behind if you do not benefit me positively.

It’s religious: The gods are there for my protection. They want me to be happy. If you are going against that then why should I consider staying with you? When you say that everything will go to shit after you leave then it’s my fault, and if it’s my decision then I am fully willing to bear the brunt of the conflict and pain and finally push past that (also that is lowkey manipulation becuase you are making me fearful of a choice that I have to make so I would not make that choice). I will accept my karma and everything that happens and treat it as a learning process in order to move forward as a stronger person.

I will stop letting my emotions control me. Anger that you feel towards me does not have to be listened to because I know what is good for me. I will stop returning that anger because it releases something inside of me that shouldn’t be released. Thank you for starting me on this path, and thank you for a guide that may push me on the right path. I rejected it because it came from you. That was my mistake. Whether I reject it or not is my choice and only my choice to make. I thank you for introducing it to me, but I do not need to feel guilty for not doing as you tell me, simply because it is my choice to make.

I do not want to cut off ties with you: Why? Because you make me afraid of the consequences that will happen if I do. That is not right. It should not be a fear of mine. Am I willing to go through everything that will happen if I do? At the moment no. Will I be in the future? It depends.

Why should I feel guilty for not listening to you or being close to you? You are my dad, yes, but a title does not equal a relationship or a bond. I do not have to put up with you and your whining and your negativity simply because I am related to you. Thank you for bringing me into this world, but I am not a doll for you to shape with your own liking, I am allowed to have boundaries that you do not like but you need to accept them because I am a person and I deserve to feel what I want to feel. Stop making me feel like I need to be what you want me to be. I dont want to. If you see a path for me then that is your own feelings, stop projecting it onto me and making me feel like I need to be someone I am not.

I dont appriciate you shoving all your oppinions of other onto me. I am weak when it comes to oppinions of others. If I trust the person I take it to heart. You use that against me. You make me cut off people based off of your perception of them from your own personal past (very past) experiences. If I am happy with the person presently then why is it a bad thing and why do I need to know about your perception of them. Stop turning me against them I do not want to know.